Self Love Challenge Day 6

2:03 PM

Hmm, this is a tough one to think about. I honestly can’t think of anything right now.. nothing has really been on my mind for years that I have felt guilty about or something I need to forgive myself for.

I guess the one thing I can think of is this: my parents use to take us on vacation every summer if possible and my dad LOVED to take pictures. Pictures of us on our vacation doing everything, to me as a chubby little 8-16 year old, I HATED it. I would literally get mad at my dad for wanting to take so many pictures. Now that I am older, I find myself looking at our printed photos in the box we keep them in and I always wish there was more pictures. Since last year I stopped getting mad at him and I made sure to include myself and take selfies with him. That’s definitely another one of my goals for 2018 – take more photos with the people I love. Memories are nothing if you can’t remember them 20 years from now, but pictures are forever. So I guess this isn’t something I need to forgive myself for? It’s just something that I have always held inside and I feel bad for ever getting mad at my dad and complaining to him. I always remember times where he would take pictures and I would get mad and he would just walk away sad. Hurts my heart. He just wanted us to be happy and remember those moments. I love my dad and am very thankful for everything he has done for us ❤ Now it’s my turn to take over the picture taking 🙂 

Self Love Challenge Day 5

9:52 AM

Something I need to start saying “yes” to is watching more movies with Mirhad. He loves to watch movies all of the time and I’m always too tired so that’s one thing I want to start saying yes to. Another is saying yes to hanging out with my friends more. One of my goals for 2018 is to hangout with my friends and family more, including my siblings. I’m always too busy and swamped with work to sit down and just hangout with them, but I need to spend my weekend nights with them more often!

2018 Goals & The 52 Lists Project

So I bought this book called the 52 List Project from Marshall’s today and it’s basically a year of weekly journaling inspiration. On the back it says “Create 52 lists, one for every week of the year, that will help you discover the beauty, joy, creativity, and power you already have! Get ready to celebrate, enjoy, and take ownership of your life, as each week of the year becomes more thoughtful and vibrant.” I bought a similar book like this for Sanela when she got a new job, but hers is about happiness. I really like this one because it’s all about goals and listing things. I looked through it and some of the things are really interesting to write about. So each week I will have a new topic to write about. This will be fun!

The first page says “List your goals and dreams for this year.” So I wanted to write them on here, too. This way I can have it in multiple places to look back on!

  • Move into my new house with Mirhad
  • Graduate college
  • Get married
  • Read more books –> at least 12 this year*
  • Get to a healthy weight & stay there –> be comfortable in your own body, don’t lose weight just to be skinny, lose weight to be healthy for yourself and for your future self
  • Travel A LOT
  • Up my water intake –> I have many water bottles that measure the water so drink a couple of those a day
  • Volunteer @ the bunny shelter often
  • Spend more time with my family –> I already do, but I just need to continue doing it
  • Renovate my dream home –> make my house how I’ve always dreamed of having it
  • Go to health check-ups –> 2x a year
  • Save money –> as soon as I start working, create a financial plan
  • Take a road trip across the USA 
  • Take pictures every day
  • Floss
  • Go to bed earlier, wake up earlier –> I always stay up late and end up waking up around 10, feels like most of my day is taken up by sleeping.. wake up earlier and make the most of the day
  • Try something new or do something (go explore) –> once a month
  • Spend more time outside 
  • Learn more –> documentaries, a course, etc.,
  • Prepare my food –> for work, for school, always have a plan of what to eat so I don’t end up eating random junk
  • Eat fruit & vegetables more –> incorporate this into my diet

 

So far, that’s what I have. I will probably add more!

January 1, 2018

10:52 PM

Hello!

Happy New Year! 🎉🎉

Wow, it is 2018.. felt so weird dating that in my title. 2018 is a special year because 4 years ago in 2014 I graduated high school and started college that fall. 2018 has always been that year I look forward to because it meant that I would be graduating college! Which means all of my hard work has paid off and I am about to enter the real world 🙂 

Thinking about the fact that in about 5 months I will be walking across that stage and leaving as a college graduate is scary but exciting at the same time. My life starts after that day… my real life. Sure high school and college were fun, but this is where the real fun is. My life will begin as a wife and a full-time employee! I am excited to start this new chapter in my life and I will definitely miss college and all of its little perks.

Honestly, even though I didn’t live on campus or wasn’t really involved in much at school, I had fun going to school with my best friend and my friends from high school. First two years of college were the best. Mirhad lived on campus and I got to visit him literally whenever I wanted. I use to go straight from school to Mirhads and then back if I had a night class. I remember once I was late to my first day of night class because I was hanging out with Mirhad and didn’t realize traffic was so bad between our schools 😂😂 but yeah, first two years were so fun. Junior year I don’t remember much of as of right now. Senior year has probably been the best.. Mirhad went to school with me almost every single day (we would alternate with his classes and he would come to my school and vice versa). Entering my last semester of college, I have to say that I’m grateful that it’s almost over LOL. I’m just ready. I just want to start my life outside of school and with Mirhad of course finally 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 

So last night was New Years! We partied in Mirhads basement with Sanela, Elma, Vildana, and Adem (Elma’s cousin). It was really fun, we danced, sang, drank some stuff, and ate some good food. It was a good time. I have a lot of funny videos so those will be some good memories to hold on to! We all pretty much knocked out around 2 am. Mirhad didn’t feel well (he’s been sick the last couple of days) and as soon as it hit 12, he was basically asleep on the floor. We were calling people to pick up the others so they don’t drink home, but Adem refused and drove off in his car as soon as Vildana and Elma got into Dzevad’s car hahaha. It was funny. I found Mirhad in his room cuddled up into his blankets sleeping, so I left him to sleep while me and Sanela cleaned up the mess in the basement. Didn’t take us long and after that she left. I put on my onesie and cuddled up next to Mirhad to help him feel a little bit better. It was -4 last night so it was soooo cold. We had 3 blankets on us and it was cold half of the time 😐😐

So yeah we woke up around 12 pm, went to go return some stuff to Walmart and bought some chinese food from the mall. It’s literally the best there 😋. After that we took a little nap – it’s that type of weather where it’s so cold you’d rather be inside in bed sleeping or just huddled up trying to stay warm, hasn’t gone above 6 degrees today 😦 After that my mom wanted to go out to dinner with Sanela’s parents and asked if Mirhad and I wanted to go. Which led to the decision of everyone going – so literally it was my parents, Sanela’s parents, Mirhad, me, Sanela, Ermin, Emma, Anel, and Dzenana (Ermin’s girlfriend). We wanted to go to Syberg’s, but when we got up there they said the wait was an hour and everyone was too hungry to wait.  So we ended up eating at the casinos restaurant. It was delicious and they had big portions so it was nice! 

Now I’m just in bed writing this. Mirhad asked to come by with a surprise snack (donuts), but he went up to Krispy Kreme and it was closed?!!? 😦 Oh well, maybe another time. At least he thought of me ❤ I think I am going to start reading one of my books tonight that I ordered from Amazon. And maybe finish that Black Mirror episode we started yesterday. 

Tomorrow I’m going to sit down and write all of my goals for 2018 – probably for the first 6 months. I’m excited and ready to do this!!! 2018 let’s goooooo! 😀 

Good night! 🌙